Flexibility

I wrote a blog about a week ago amidst packing and working and goodbye-ing and at one point I needed to close down the app and do something else and was planning to come back to it but when I did it was gone :( I didn’t take the time to figure out what I had been talking about and now it’s lost in space and my unconscious memory.
The weather is making me crazy.. It claims it’s going to rain and snow all weekend and yet it isn’t now and I look out the window and see patches of blue sky. There are benefits to waiting another weekend but I’m ready to be done and GO!
We have also had a couple snafus in travel plans because the date for the cotton harvest got moved up two weeks ~ we were informed of this RIGHT after we bought our tickets! In hindsight I would have checked in with the farmer right before to make sure everything was still on track (this was the case just a week before but weather…it messes with things!) So now Ben and I are in Sydney for 3 weeks with very little cash OR Jon pays the fees to change the dates and we move the whole trip up. Not sure what the final plan is at this point. There sure is plenty to get done before I leave regardless of WHEN it is!
I cut off my hair last week and while I’m loving the short and sassy look, I think I want it shorter. The term I used was “flippy-outty” and right now it’s just poofy. Sometimes things don’t quite turn out the way I imagine. A friend said, whatever you’re imagining this place (Australia) is going to be like, it’s going to be completely different! He’s right I’m sure. As I was packing my clothes last night I thought about how funny it was to try and imagine wearing these things in a setting I knew very little about. It’s sort of like imagining a blank background, I don’t know what it’s going to be!
It’s been really interesting trying to pull the funds together to make this happen. From tango lessons to unemployment (Which I haven’t successfully received yet) to tax return to selling my car and computer and to this yard sale that may or may not happen (depending on the weather!) Oh and birthday $$ AND money from old gift cards and such ~ I think I’ll have a nice cushion so that after the farm I don’t have to scramble to wildly to find an un-enjoyable day job. A friend pointed out yesterday that everything we do has purpose and is decided by our purpose. If my purpose is to make children and families happy as I support myself, then I can keep working with them. If my purpose is to do some internal focusing and not be worried about taking care of others, probably childcare isn’t the best way to go to meet my financial needs AND my personal needs. It will be quite interesting to find a job outside of that comfort zone!
I guess I need to keep moving along. There really is so much to be done and whether I leave Monday or a week from then, I need to keep moving! Today I’m going to act as though the yard sale is happening and if tomorrow morning I wake up and there’s snow falling from the sky, I’ll curl up in front of the fire with a book, visit with my family and wait for the snow pass through. It’s amazing: the power of choice. I also discovered the other day that when I walk around with a smile on my face I think happy and positive thoughts, which makes me smile, which continues the cycle. It also opens the door for possibility! And awareness for the beautiful and wonderful things in life is so much more present! I enjoyed stopping and dancing for a street musician singing Irish songs before going in to ask to use my 10 expired gift certificates ~ which were granted! :D Just keep smiling!